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January 5th, 2026, 7:40 PM
I wish I could write more, but I feel so demotivated. I wrote a Doctor Who OC and I want to write a kind of Skyrim Fanfic but I don't feel motivation to make things more than they are. Maybe I need a break. But then again, I know why. I stretch myself across borders and lengths to live my life in every way for every one and now I sit here behind a screen staring at the stories of others. This site to me looks like a place I want to be, even though it is my first hour of being present. It looks comfortable, real. I want to be here, but I know that it may bring me despair. However, even with that, I think it will be a nice place to get my thoughts out without a worry of anyone looking. I feel safe, at least right now.
I miss when I had a lover but I also know I would do even less of what I feel drawn to with one, so maybe I'll find this silver lining while I see what comes onto my path in time. I won't avoid it, but I won't expect it and will make peace with what I have.
I wish I could write more, but I feel so demotivated. I wrote a Doctor Who OC and I want to write a kind of Skyrim Fanfic but I don't feel motivation to make things more than they are. Maybe I need a break. But then again, I know why. I stretch myself across borders and lengths to live my life in every way for every one and now I sit here behind a screen staring at the stories of others. This site to me looks like a place I want to be, even though it is my first hour of being present. It looks comfortable, real. I want to be here, but I know that it may bring me despair. However, even with that, I think it will be a nice place to get my thoughts out without a worry of anyone looking. I feel safe, at least right now.
I miss when I had a lover but I also know I would do even less of what I feel drawn to with one, so maybe I'll find this silver lining while I see what comes onto my path in time. I won't avoid it, but I won't expect it and will make peace with what I have.
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