lionhitch: The Tenth Doctor looking contemplative (Contemplative)
January 6th, 2026, 10:54 PM
I honestly wish that I could just be someone important. I mean, I know I'm valuable, and it isn't about that, but it is about being a necessity for someone, or being someone with not only the capacity to do more than others but also the means to do so. I mean, imagine if I could help people in ways nobody else could. With maybe abilities or something, something supernatural. Imagine how much I could give to people and how much happier they might be.

Perhaps it is selfish, and that is fine if it is, because it is my truth and it will not come to fruition. Perhaps one day I will be the most important person to someone, or maybe not. I'm hoping I will but I do not know what is in store for me. I don't want to write about religion on here in case someone finds discomfort or disagreement in it, but hopefully the path for me is one that will be the most beautiful in the end and I will see it. I'm sure it is, however I am not nearly dimensional enough to scrutinize the truth. Regardless, it will be more satisfactory to get there and feel like I did that, perhaps with guidance and additional opportunity from my higher power, but my effort to walk through those doors regardless.

I hope I can help people one day. Help them in a way that no one can. I pray for it in my heart of hearts. my soul squeezed between my restrictions; my mind limited only by itself.
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lionhitch: The Tenth Doctor looking curious or pleased (Curious)
January 5th, 2026, !0:00 PM
        Looking at the moon all I can think about is why I am here and who I am here with. Not in the moment, but in my life and in the world overall. All of you on this site, every one, you all are strangers. I mean, some of you are russian, some of you are american, others of you belong to lands I can't dream of, and yet, you all still live. You all are different from me. Many are autistic, some are young like I am, others are over twice my age, and yet we all are threaded together 

       It is so beautiful that we all live in this world together. Regardless of our differences, we are all so close, and even when we do not say anything we look at each other and wish for greatness between us. I care for all of you, and I try to read what I can, even though I have no impact on a single person here. Perhaps a handful of you live even in the same state as me, but many do not, and I find that so awing. On sites like Instagram or Discord you don't feel so connected. You don't feel like you know these people, just a persona of them. Not even a shadow but the light they cast to blind you from seeing anything of them at except for what they move in front of it. Yet here I don't see that. Nobody here chases clout, followers, or anything. You chase recognition, true sight into your being. You want understanding, not necessarily dopamine from clicks. 

       Because of that, you have no choice but the be open. You have no choice but to honestly tell people what is exactly on your mind in that exact moment. Who knows if someone will even read it, but even then it feels so nice to even speak your words into a void. Someone could be listening. Your voice could be heard, even if there is no response. There is a beauty to that. It is liberating. I can say what I must without fear of being ostracized or misunderstood, because anyone who responds understands, or at least seeks to understands. Those who do not are merely passersby who might have listened but did not want to pity you with an answer of naivety. 

       I may not be anything but a young adult; I may not be anything like many of you, but I care deeply for all of you and hope I can understand all who suffer from misunderstanding and seek for the void to speak back.
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lionhitch: The Tenth Doctor looking serious (Serious)
January 5th, 2026, 7:40 PM
I wish I could write more, but I feel so demotivated. I wrote a Doctor Who OC and I want to write a kind of Skyrim Fanfic but I don't feel motivation to make things more than they are. Maybe I need a break. But then again, I know why. I stretch myself across borders and lengths to live my life in every way for every one and now I sit here behind a screen staring at the stories of others. This site to me looks like a place I want to be, even though it is my first hour of being present. It looks comfortable, real. I want to be here, but I know that it may bring me despair. However, even with that, I think it will be a nice place to get my thoughts out without a worry of anyone looking. I feel safe, at least right now.

I miss when I had a lover but I also know I would do even less of what I feel drawn to with one, so maybe I'll find this silver lining while I see what comes onto my path in time. I won't avoid it, but I won't expect it and will make peace with what I have.
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